Im soorry to my love oness T_T..

honey im sorry.. i didnt meant to disturb ur mood early in the morning with explaining why i wrote that blog.. T_T.. i was just trying to explain...
and i know ur not in the mood because of that.. im really sorry.. but i really love u.. i love u so muchh... and i wish we could be together... the answer now lies in ur hand.. not mine.. i have done my job by leaving clues in wut i do... and have ask for ur hand.. but u left me hanging.. and now im still waiting for ur answer....
im kind of jealous with u a bit.. when i couldnt help u when u needed help the most.. instead somebody else helped u.. if u have felt how helpless and powerless u can be than u should understand how i feel... i try to be there for you. but often out of words to ask or talk.. im jealous u have friends so close.. in which u can ask for help any moment u want... unlike me so far away n useles.. im sorry for everything.. i have hated everything once. even God.. but u appear and make me happy.. make me feel alive again.... im really sorry baby.. i didnt meant to make ur mood go away T_T... i lov u so muchh...
to my looved one... (she herself should know who i meant)