dont know.. dont care..

sometimes.. it feels really alone.. sometimes it feels otherwise.. but being alone is not so bad.. you could stil be free in doing anything you want.. being ignorant and hard headed but in the midst of the happiness in being alone.. there is a slight feeling of lonely that could not fade. it will always be there.. even when you among frens.. you could still feel it.. sometimes you could wish you wouldnt be alone.. but in your heart.. you want to be alone permanently.. but dont worry.. when you die.. you die alone.. for sure..its a great desire that wanting to have someone who could shoulder your problem just as same you shoulder theirs.. but that desire is still in the unknown path.. you might get someone who only want their trouble shoulder but doesnt want to burden themselves with yours.. its the same as being lonely and alone.. sigh.. when i walk alone always see a couple walk in front. sometimes argue.. sometimes hold hands.. somtime lies in the phone call.. the word used.. im with frens now.. later u see the man hugging the woman tightly.. fren? lol.. the description is wrong than all of us then.. im just a straight person and sometimes i use riddle to describe my feeling.. thats why im still single :D goodd God.. but thats only the other reason.. the main reason you should know what..i herited my moms mind.. that is dont trouble anyone as long as you can do it yourself..but i think i did trouble my college mate enough already ^_^.. i hope they dont really mind.. why does those who seek could never find what they seek but only find what they dont seek.. but to me.. i could never ever find what i seek..